Archive - Big Feels

Big Feels on Being at the Dentist During the Eclipse

I am at the dentist during the eclipse (whoops). She carves a little statue of David into my mouth.

Apr 10 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

March 2024

Big Feels on Big Questions

How do you recognize a person? How does a person become unrecognizable?

Mar 19 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

February 2024

Big Feels on Big Fear

This fear of separation was stoked in a constant and steady way with religious end-of-the-world scenarios.

Feb 27 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

January 2024

Big Feels on Big Bones

He mourned my ass like the death of a beloved dog.

Jan 30 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

Big Feels on the Newest Year that Ever Was

Something is so sick and twisted here, girlie.

Jan 11 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

December 2023

Big Feels on Anything Other Than Religious Trauma (let's have fun for once, god!)

Let’s save the religious trauma until the new year.

Dec 12, 2023 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

November 2023

Big Feels on Love and an Ancient Hurt (fun!)

We are two good hurricanes, this old friend and I. We were born in the eye of the storm in the middle of nowhere.

Nov 9, 2023 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

October 2023

Big Feels on Not Stopping

She said, “No, you’re not going to stop.” I thought she was going to tell me to stop.

Oct 11, 2023 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

September 2023

Big Feels on Sleepovers and Perfect Girls

My bones whisper: Do you know how quiet we had to be? Do you know how stiff and still? Do you know what it is to try to control even your dreams so you…

Sep 13, 2023 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

August 2023

Big Feels on a Near Miss

He makes his body as tall and broad as it can be, while also trying to keep a nonchalant swing in his limbs that says, “I am a cool boy, but a strong…

Aug 8, 2023 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

July 2023

Big Feels: An Epitaph

I remember my first dead gopher. (Did I shoot it? Did I cry out? I don’t know. I can see the chest ripped open, I can see the heart beating wildly, I…

Jul 10, 2023 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

May 2023

Big Feels on Haircuts and Flaky Dough

And there is a picture of us three girls with bangs cut straight across sitting in descending order, naked in the bathtub. We are beaming, glowing. Our…

May 16, 2023 •

Natahna Bargen-Lema

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